2008/06/11
心情涂鸦
心情很沉重，压得我喘不过气来，是感情，是工作，思绪很乱。。。早上坐公司班车迟到，坐公交车没下站，上厕所丢了雨伞，工作没有精神，快崩溃了！
很多时候，我都在想生活到底是为了什么。为了追求自己向往的生活，离开了我爱我家，可是为了生活，我又选择了一份工作，是喜欢？是无奈？终究没有跳出这种生活，突然间，我明白了我很想改变现状，可是自己并非能改变得了。
我有过几段感情，可是每次都是以分手告终，今天我遇到了同样的问题，我希望这段感情是我最后的感情，可是我希望得到的感情，自己喜欢的人总是无法百分之百让我满足，我也试着接受他百分之五十的爱，可是我心里很难受，老是发脾气，还提分手，可能他也在痛苦中吧，虽然我不希望这种痛苦继续，除了请求他原谅，我真的没有一点办法！
amma 发表于 2008-06-11 10:12 阅读( 405) 评论( 1) 引用( 0) *生活*
2007/01/28
宁静的冬日
结束了一天的工作,站起身,擦了擦疲惫的眼睛,伸了伸懒腰,我背上包包，飞也似的冲出了办公室,呵呵,终于自由了,明天是个轻松的日子.
一出大厦,想穿过马路,却碰到红灯,看到来来往往的汽车,郁闷....
今天小三生日,好姐妹都来了........后续
amma 发表于 2007-01-28 00:55 阅读( 837) 评论( 1) 引用( 0) *生活*
2007/01/14
今天感冒了
不知道什么原因,我感冒了,其实我的身体一直是很健康的,是什么原因呢?很多原因吧.也许最近工作压力大,身体抵抗力下降了很多,房间太通风了也不好啊.
鼻子塞住了,还咳嗽,头还晕,难受死了,希望自己能快点好起来,这样子的话,我咋工作呢?新年快到了,希望我的父母和朋友都有一个健康的身体~~~~
amma 发表于 2007-01-14 22:59 阅读( 837) 评论( 3) 引用( 0) *生活*
2006/12/17
来来去去
花开了又谢了
你来了我走了
漫漫人生
来来去去
循环往复
告诉自己
难得生一回
不要烦恼
不要忧伤
我们要选择快乐的生活
amma 发表于 2006-12-17 12:54 阅读( 931) 评论( 0) 引用( 0) *生活*
2006/11/19
路
好久没来这里转转了，因为之前我找了一份很忙的工作，到今天为止，已经整整两个月时间了，之前是做好了心理准备才来的，也是因为想挑战自己才来的，希望自己在中企这个大的平台锻炼自己，使自己快速的成长起来，因为觉得自己太幼稚，不知道生活的酸甜苦辣，所以就来了，也是因为希望自己以后拥有一分属于自己的事业，也说不好是怎么样的一份事业，想去经商吧，做个地道的生意人，所以就来了，只是一个美好的梦想，可是在这里呆了这么长的时间，怎么发觉自己这么没有用呢，连续一个月没有出单，也不愿出去见客户， 见客户的时候也不知道怎么去介绍产品，心里憋得难受， 再加上自己又那么不自信， 看来是不太适合做生意了……
思维真的很乱， 不知道自己应该干吗……
提出辞职， 就是想逃离这种生活。现在我又像站在了十字路口，不知道何去何从了，走销售这条路，还是走技术这条路呢，我到底想要什么呢？
amma 发表于 2006-11-19 12:19 阅读( 1017) 评论( 1) 引用( 0) *生活*
2006/09/07
找工作的第一天
今天9月7日，出去找工作了，算算自己已经休息了10多天了，时间过的还真是快，一眨眼就过去了
amma 发表于 2006-09-07 22:47 阅读( 815) 评论( 1) 引用( 0) *生活*
2006/09/01
我是一只小小鸟
有时候我觉得自己是一只小小鸟
想要飞却怎么也飞不高
也许有一天我攀上了枝头却成为猎人的目标
我飞上了青天才发现自己从此无依无靠
每次到了夜深人静的时候我总是睡不着
我怀疑是不是只有我明天没有变的更好
未来会怎样究竟有谁会知道
幸福是否只是一种传说我永远都找不到
我是一只小小鸟
想要飞呀却飞也飞不高
我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱
这样的要求不算太高
所有知道我的名字的人啊你们好不好
世界是如此的小我们注定无处可逃
当我尝尽人情冷暖当你决定为了你的理想燃烧
生活的魔力与生命的尊严哪一个重要
amma 发表于 2006-09-01 10:11 阅读( 1329) 评论( 6) 引用( 12) *生活*
2006/08/31
什么才是真实？
也许自己太过傻，也许自己太过天真，发现世界上很多事情都不尽人意，很讨厌这个世界，讨厌身边的很多事情，连自己放纵的机会都没有，你一放纵，身边的某些事情都会向猛兽向你扑过来，你不能放纵，你不能动弹，你要规规矩矩，你要老老实实，你最好别去多管身边的事情，别去管别人的事情，不要去干涉别人的生活，因为别人终究是别人，你不需要对他/她好，因为他们自己有手，有脚，有思想，你只要不去得罪他扪，你只要不去限制他们，你只要他们不要来干涉自己就好了，世界上似乎没有一个除自己身体以外更值得信任的东西了。
不要去奢望得到别人的理解，别人的关怀，别人的谅解，其实别人关心的只是他们自己，别人和自己终究还是隔着一层空气，完全隔绝的空气~~~公司瓦解了，大家为了钱吵的面红耳赤，解散了，人与人之间变的陌生了，没有了信任，没有了人情……
今天和公司完全解除了劳动合同，该拿的都拿了，
，跟八面互动永远的没有关系了，心里有点哀伤，独自一个人走在路上，被一个美容院业务员拉去做免费做美容，后来发现自己上当受骗，很是气愤。。。这应该叫做被那些心怀不轨的人趁虚而入了吧，自认倒霉了，不过我还是做了一次免费的皮肤护理……，人与人之间啊，缺少真诚……
回到家，他们已经吃完饭了，没有问我回家吃吗？我一个人忙着做饭，一个人吃，却跟xxx吵起架来，人与人啊，缺少谅解和关怀，失望……
和brayan聊天，发现他说的有些话是假了，让我又是一阵失望，人与人之间到底有没有信任，有没有真诚呢？带着面具做人，应该很累吧~~，我好累~~~~
我对周围的一切都好失望，难道我也要带着面具做人？？？？
amma 发表于 2006-08-31 22:27 阅读( 1297) 评论( 3) 引用( 10) *生活*
2006/08/29
Today is mine
When i work in the company,i think i'm not myself.I think i'm a machine which is working for the company all the day.I'm so tired,so boring.I'm glad that i'm free now~~
Today is mine,i can do everythings i want to do .I'm free,i can fly in the sky like a bird,I'm happy,i'm lucky,i'm a free girl.
Can you guess what i did in the morning and in the afternoon?it's funny , difficult and a little foolish.In the moring,i helped my cat washing several times,it's so dirty,even has many louses in his body,it's so nauseating,but i must do something for my pitifull cat,,so i catched many many louses out his body.so i washed myself many many times too.
When i finished our washing,my uncle gave me a call.He told me he wanted to go to Zhengzhou of henan province.So i promised him to buy a train ticket,,i telephoned the train stations,know there were no sleeping berths left these days,but it's a so long time tour which is almost 18 hours,if uncle can't sleep,it will be very tired.But i can't find one sleeping berth left,it's bothered me much,however,i decided go to buy a hard seat,because uncle must go there these days.So i dressed me a lot,then went to the station,it's so hot outside that i was baked like a chiken on the stove.I rode bike at first,then took a bus to the station.it's better...
When i got there,i send a message to my friend who are from henan provice,After asking some questions,i bought a hard seat tiket.Several minutes later,my friend gave me a call ,he told me that there are sleeping berths tickets in the place where sells train tickets but not the stationg.实际上我在说，火车票代售点可以买到。
So i went there taking the hard seat ticket i had bought,it's so hot too....i'm glad that i managed to buy seat that my uncle can sleep on at the end .It costed me 166 yuan..But another problem came,i must gave back the hard seat ticket to the station.i'm so disturbed,it's so hot that i didn't want any moving.But i started finally,took bus to the station,then gave the ticket back.The most indignant thing is that the booking clerk also charged me 13 yuan for that.
I think i have lost money in doing this business,wasting some money and a lot of time...Because the place where i finally bought the sleeping berth ticket is so near to my house........
amma 发表于 2006-08-29 22:23 阅读( 2216) 评论( 3) 引用( 11) *生活*
2006/08/28
Beautifull school,good boy
It is very hot today,the highest temporature is 34 dgree,the sun is shining brightly,but i must bare this ,because i have to go to fuyang and met a good friend who are teaching in dayuan middle school,he is my brother.
I started at 9:00 o' clock,but waited a bus for more than half an hour,and i felt hot and tired
it's half past 11:00 when i got there and had a lunch with my friend and other two teachers in a restaurant named Sister Restaurant.The food is good,but bad is their service.My friend's name is Happy lee,a handsome boy.He likes drinking beer and always intoxicated for that.I don't like that habit now although i had been that looks before.So we spared one hour eating lunch.It's so long that I wanted to go to sleep.
I found the school is very beautifull,it is sorrounded by all the hills and trees.It's clean and slient .I like it.
Summer vacation has just pass,so my friend have so much party to join.He is intoxicated today.But done some things i didn't foresee.
I happended to a rainstorm while i left,but it's sunny in hangzhou when I arrived .
When i took a wet umbrella walking on the street,i felt funny~~~
amma 发表于 2006-08-28 22:04 阅读( 1672) 评论( 4) 引用( 12) *生活*
